Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Insulting Pep Talks (I'm a Little Confused)

So in SkillsUSA I'm running for State Office. In order to run you have to come with a campaign to get people to vote for you. It can't go over $100 and you only have a four foot table to work on. I was telling my mom about this and i reach the $100 bit when she just snapped. And this is basically how it went:

She started going off on how i apparently just come up and say i need money and expect her to give it to me.

And then how when she talks to me i just come up with this blank face and it's like it goes in one ear and out the other. (at this point i'm already giving her that look (and, really, what other face does she want me to make because if i show any emotion then it will set her off on another rant))

Then how I should joing the military. (wait...what?????)

Then I'm living in a fantasy and I'll never be able to do great things or going to an "artsy school" won't get me anywhere in life. (way to shoot down a kid's dreams mom)

Then she started her life story about how she moved out when she was 18, got pregnant with my sister, joined the military, married dad, had to other kids and now has a great job (that she hates), and even though she did it all backwards she ended up ok in the end (she forgot to mention that she has no friends, and her job is a life sucking hell, and she moved out because her dad was an ass and she already had a job at like 12 because she lied about her age, she smokes all the time, and she stole an old lady's car when she was a pre-teen)

It's a waste of time to even look at the stuff colleges send me in the mail because I'll never be able to afford it

Joining the military gives you everything (YEAH :D they only enslave you and basically own you for the majority of your life)

Then how I won't even be able to get a scholarship because I'm not trying, I just act like I'm already awesome so I should automatically do well (She apparently can't remember that I'm taking COLLEGE-level math right now, the majority of my classes are ADVANCED, I learned JAPANESE over the summer, I'm in a bunch of AFTER SCHOOL PROGRAMS, I'm trying to sign up for DUAL ENROLLMENT next year on top of two AP history classes (yes, two. One of them is my elective) and i need to start looking for colleges and scholarships (because she's made it perfectly clear that I'm on my own when it comes to that) and i still need to take my SAT)

Then more ranting about how i have no concept of money (I have a perfect concept of money. I have none because i don't have a job. I don't have a job because i have no way to get there. I have no way to get there because I can't drive. I can't drive because i don't have enough hours to get my license because she'll never take me driving-I'm stuck begging her for money because she's basically set me up to beg the rest of my life and then be yelled at for it)

"I'd love to see your name on the big screen. Maybe even as the lead actress. Wait.....you probably won't be the lead actress..." (more dream crushing...even though that isn't a dream of mine anymore and i already knew it was a long shot)

Then "it'll suck because you won't be able to sit on the couch all day if you join the military" (basically calling me fat and lazy)

"High five.Now go and kick some butt, girl" (wait.......what???????)

Basically I was just yelled at, given a pep talk, and a sales pitch on joining the military all at the same time which has left me a little confused. And all i was trying to do was tell her about my day at school Xl

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